The alarm sounded at 3am. I would normally say, "It's the last day!" But instead I say, "It's the first day of the rest of my life!" No matter what I have won! More than 45.5 lbs. in 51 days! That is amazing. I hit the gym to do sauna time. Pooh Bear Stacey came up there at 4:15am to be with me! How awesome is she for doing that. Then it's time to get ready and head to the station.
From 5:45am until a little after 8am had to be the longest morning of my entire life! When we got there we had to wait for the trainers to get there. As they arrived we were called back one by one to weigh. "OH MY GOD! ARE YOU GUYS SERIOUSLY COVERING UP THE SCALE SO THAT WE CANNOT SEE OUR WEIGHT?" I was so nervous. Not because of the amount lost but of the amount gained. GAINED?!?! Yes I gained 4 lbs. last week. So I worked my fanny off this entire week. I would not be able to handle coming in and hearing that I gained weight. This entire contest I have never been in the bottom and the most important week ever I gain? WTF? NO!!!!!!! So after waiting....waiting....waiting.... T-bone comes to the holding cell to get us. From that point I have amnesia. I don't remember much except:

WHAT? WHAT KARSON? WHAT WAS THAT? DID YOU JUST SAY I AM MEMPHIS' BIGGEST LOSER? HOLY FREAKING COW! ANTIONNE!!!!!!!!!!!!((((((((((BIG HUGS)))))))))))
47.5 lbs. in 51 days! 22% of my body weight gone? WOW!!!

I am so GREATFUL AND BLESSED to be MEMPHIS' BIGGEST LOSER!!! I never thought it was possible but now that Antionne has shown me that I can do it and that I really do have faith in myself, I am so going all the way!

ANTIONNE YOU ARE MY IDOL! I THANK GOD FOR YOU! BUT THEY AINT SEEN NOTHING YET. YEAH IN 6 MONTHS ANTIONNE SAID I AM GONNA BE LOOKING LIKE I JUST STEPPED OUT OF A MAGAZINE! AND NO NOT THE "FATTY PATTY GIRLS" MAGAZINE EITHER!

KARSON, KENNEDY, AND SNITCH BOY YOU GUYS ROCK! SERIOUSLY, YOU GUYS MAKE MY DAY, EVERYDAY!YOU THREE HAVE SOMETHING SPECIAL AND I LOVE YOU GUYS FOR ALL THAT YOU ARE AND ALL THAT YOU STAND FOR!!!

APRIL YOU ARE SUCH A FRESH BREATH OF SPRING AIR! YOU ARE MY LIFE-LONG BEST FRIEND! THANK YOU FOR HOLDING MY HEAD UP WHEN I COULDN'T. THANK YOU FOR KEEPING ME GOING. REMEMBER BOOTCAMP DAY 1? STAIRS....STAIRS......STAIRS.....I NEVER THOUGHT MY BODY COULD HURT SO BAD. I FELT AS IF I WAS KILLING MYSELF BY TRYING TO DO THE THINGS THESE TWO MEATS HEADS WANTED US TO DO. YES, THEY (ANTIONNE AND MATT) WERE MEATHEADS ON DAY 1. WE HAVE SOME GREAT MEMORIES THAT I WILL CARRY WITH ME FOREVER. THANK YOU FOR BEING APART OF MY LIFE! I LOVE YOU!!!

POOH BEAR (CO-TEAM CAPTAIN) YOU ARE THE SWEETEST HONEY BEAR I HAVE EVER MET. YOU WERE THE GREATEST COMPETITOR ON THAT DAMN TREADMILL. 12 MPH WAS UNREAL. YOU ARE SUPERWOMAN!! YOU HAVE TRULY BEEN OUR #1 SUPPORTER! THERE IS NO ONE THAT COULD HAVE EVER SUPPORTED US THE WAY YOU HAVE. I AM SO GLAD THAT YOU, APRIL, AND I HAVE THE BOND THAT WE HAVE. YOU ARE VERY SPECIAL TO ME AND I LOVE YOU GIRLY!

TO EVERYONE WHO WAS BEHIND ME, THANK YOU! I CANNOT BELIEVE ALL THE PEOPLE WHO CALLED INTO THE STATION IN SUPPORT OF ME! THAT WAS FREAKING AWESOME!! I HOPE YOU ALL KNOW THAT EACH AND EVERY ONE OF YOU HELPED ME MAKE IT TO WHERE I AM AND THIS IS NOT THE TOP! I AM STILL CLIMBING AND I WILL MAKE IT ALL THE WAY!!! THANK YOU FOR SHARING THIS WITH ME!

First I would like to say "Thank You" to everyone who has supported me through the last eight weeks. I have been moody, bitchy, emotional, and so much more. I am really surprised that I have made it to the end. I never really thought I had a chance because I never had self control. I have to thank Antionne for EVERYTHING! He had faith in me way before I had it in myself. I am very proud of myself for doing this and I know I will keep this up. I have a lot more to lose but this is a great start. THANK YOU EVERYONE FOR BEING THERE BY MY SIDE!

PS. I would like to apologize to my kids for not being here. My daughter was playing with her dolls a couple nights ago and I heard her say "Mommy is never here anymore, all she does is work and workout" My heart was shattered when I heard those words but I promise to be here from this point on.

HEY! HEY! I think I see a difference!?!?! FOREVER FIT AND Q 107.5, YOU GUYS ARE THE BEST!!!!

So I got to the gym around 11 this morning and left around 4 this afternoon. I took a couple breaks but for the most part I got a good workout in. 2 days left! I am sure Antionne will hand it to us Monday and Tuesday both. Wednesday morning will be a sauna morning so I am ready for the last 4 workouts to be hard. I am excited and nervous about the ending to my fairytail. I am ready for this to be over but I am also scared. I hope I can continue this on my own. I hope when it is time to eat normal food (something other than fish) my body won't freak out! I have worked so hard these past 8 weeks (no matter what yall haters say) that I do not want to gain any of it back. I am going to continue to train with Antionne cause I like the way his undies smell. I guess I am addicted. LMAO... Wednesday I have a date with April to go get pampered. I can't wait! Massage, facial, and lunch! This will be a great week no matter what the outcome!!! I am very proud of what I have accomplished here, NO MATTER WHAT!!

Spent the day with my family at the YMCA. Our kids got to swim all day and I got to workout all day! It was nice!

4 BLOGS TO GO......

I really enjoyed my workout tonight. I was able to sneak away to our morning hiding place. The time I spent there was well needed. I have so many thoughts about all that is and has happened. I miss my Kracken sooo much! We have been joined at the hip since day 2. (I didn’t like her day 1) lol... j/k! I am so lonely without her. I feel like Linus without my blanket. I need my blanket!!!
I am now paired/matched/forced with Lindsey. For those who know me know that I am very easy going and I get along with ANYBODY! Or at least that is what I thought. I thought I could get along with anyone until Lindsey. For some reason she and I just do not and will not click. Shit we won't even pretend to click. I am not fake and I will not be fake. If this is how things are then that’s just how they are. No need to make things better or worse than reality.
Throughout life you can never have too many friends. I love all my friends. They are each unique in their own way, which makes them special in different ways. But being in this contest and meeting all these “different” people I have learned a lot. I have seen so many sad, funny, angry, hateful, and competitive people. Kracken is a funny, happy girl. She is so full of life and always makes you smile. (Except for last Wednesday). Ashley is a surprise nugget I MISS HER SOOOO MUCH! She was also great to be around. Christy was a sweetheart. Rachel was kind of shy and kept to herself. Monika was “better” than everyone. Not in a bad way either. She just had her shit together and has been there done that. Stacey is so different than anyone else I have ever met IN A GOOD WAY. She is as nice as can be but sometimes she talks way too much, WHICH I LOVE CAUSE WHEN IN THE HOT BOX SHE WILL TALK SO MUCH THAT TIME FLYS! Gotta love her. Odessa was a hoot! She was funny and she had to watch Mr.Hightower every freakin morning! LOL!! As far as the people on the Gut Busters, I really did not get a chance to get to know them. But from standing on the outside looking in I have seen such sadness from some and such laughter and life from others.
We only have 5 days left and I will carry the friendships I have made here with me. I have learned a lot from this experience and I will always cherish these 8 short weeks that have changed my life forever.

I will stand beside any of my friends no matter what. My girls are my EVERYTHING! Holly, I do want to thank you for getting pissed off about the week 5 video and standing up for me. I would have done the same thing in a split second.
“If your gonna shot up the place, I'm gonna bring the bullets!”

I have a lot that I would like to share with you guys about the changes and what all is going on, but right now I am in so much discomfort that I will have to write about it later.

I'm really tired right now. I will write about it tomorrow.


p.s. Latty, you are a dramatic snitch. lol

p.s.s. Have you not heard the word on the street? STOP SNITCHING

My brothers weight loss journey

You are my inspiration.

Good day. Boys won their baseball game. Workouts are going good.

Abizzle you are awesome! Thank you for the support! But they cant get to me. I am so much stronger than that.

I am still trying to focus more on working out. Working real hard to keep this weight coming off.

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ARE WE HAVING FUN YET??

ITS FINALLY FRIDAY!!! I will make this short and sweet. Workouts are good. Weight is coming off. Thats all I have to say.

this morning april and i climbed mt.everest. it was hard but i think we did a great job. my son is still home with strep so of course i am still home. he has a dr. appt. in the a.m. and after that he is going back to school. i hate being trap in this house for long periods of time. the walls are closing in on me. i am ready to get back to work. ok gotta go workout.

i really dont have much to say about today that everyone doesnt already know. this contest is getting more messed up by the week. this contest is suppose to be like the show, right? well everything should be based on percentage because that is THE ONLY FAIR way and today we found out that the weekly winner is based on weight only not percentage. WTF? so all the contestants who weighed less that others were at a disadvantage from day one. thats pretty messed up if you ask me. but rule 5a thay can do what they wish but not whats fair.

ps. yeah lets add someone back to the team who had more people quit. we should make them pay for all the quitters they had. instead of maybe rewarding the ones who has stuck with this and has busted their butts to still be here. we have rule 5a and we will make every contestant left suffer and pay for wanting to lose weight. lets throw a curve ball because it will help the ratings or will it? whatever! like i have said before no matter what they decide to do because they feel like it or they think it will help their ratings, I HAVE LOST 38 FREAKING POUNDS IN 6 WEEKS! AND I HAVE NEVER BEEN IN THE BOTTOM 2!!!!!!

thanks to all who is concerned about my son. i have been at the doctors office all morning with him and he has strep throat. i have been home with him all day yesterday and today and you would think i have gotten a chance to catch up on some rest but he has been vomiting all day! i really need a good carpet cleaner right now! well thanks for asking about him!

18 hours before the eviction......

I would love to say that I am positive about tomorrow but the truth is that after 5 weeks of losing a lot of weight there has to be a week where the results aren't as much. And I think my week has come. I do know that I have given my all and there is nothing more I could have done this past week. I guess our bodies go with it some weeks and not with it others. I am very thankful for the opportunity. I have started a new life here and when I am gone I will continue it. Thank you to everyone who has supported anyone in this journey to a new life!